Sonntag, 31. Juli 2011

Miles of Smiles EP

Miles of Smiles EP

Land Of Smiles by Dave Lloyd

our lady of smiles

Gary Wright Light of Smiles

different types of smiles

and for some more smiles

There are all kinds of smiles

of smile

The Clockwisdom of SMILES Part

smile leave one of yours

land of smiles

The B B Carnival of Smiles

Smile and Others Smile with

Bag of Smiles

pictures of smiles

smiles to your patients

Miles of Smiles

Boston Miles of Smiles

Message Miles Of Smiles Cd

yummy image of smiles

A day of smiles

Tip for the day: Black pee is bad.

To check my health today (like the weather), click HERE

A trip to the doctors and my pain meds are now almost double what they were three weeks ago, plus a referral for catheters. You may be wondering what death with dignity has to do with indwelling catheters when you are too weak to be able to transfer to get to the toilet. Not much.

I spin like the flower, slowly wind-stripped of petals, far, far below what I imagined and was informed the minimum of life would be. Even reading how patients with autonomic failure die only gave head knowledge, not ‘heart’ or gut-knowledge. First it was leaning that something like that could happen, suffocating to death, then it mentally understanding it was possible, then realizing exactly how it would unfold, as the individual parts already had, just had not all come together. Finally, with the diaphragm failing, and communication limited to half a word spoken in a pressure-less exhale, dying like that becomes one of the things to work against, to ward against.

Last night, after a tense influx of breath, forgotten, left me seeing spots and the feeling of drowning deep down in the black water, I reminded myself again, “Do not hold breath….as you are too weak to regain the oxygen, or the breathing.”

The heat and fatigue brought by circulation, breathing, sustaining a body brings about micro strokes. I am still prone to talk too much, though it often results in me face down (a photo book: 101 pictures of Beth face-down in interesting locations and foods).

Thank you for the encouraging messages. Less so the 'please send one last postcard now!', as I think you might have missed the point of the previous blogs from Cheryl and Linda and the Postcard Project.

Now that I am to the point where it looks like I might last the week, the complications of that crashes down upon me, in library late fees to regret at not getting a giant garage sale sorted while I still had the energy. I have over 50 postcards still to finish decorating, to write and send out. I have to try and see around the floaties in the eye from the starbursts of high blood pressure and dying capillaries, hoping the body will absorb them somehow and sight will be returned. The collection of eyeball blood bursts: ‘eye of a H junkie run out of places to shoot up’ is a bit ‘ick’. That and the worry I may be taken for a wheelchair zombie.

There is a Terry Moore ‘Brazil’ style organization surrealism as people openly talk about the days or weeks I might have. “Think I can make it until Thursday?”

“Not if you keep losing that much blood, and if the weather gets cooler.”

Reports go up and back as agencies try play ‘pass the parcel’, where Beacon, running out of workers who can get the concept that I am not 80, not bedbound, not apartment bound (all times), yet I am often more ill and more fragile than clients who are in bed 24/7. Also, in a given week, I may be in bed, asleep or just barely conscious for two to four days. Palliative organization says I am registered but not in my last three weeks (though different managers try to convince them otherwise), so no mysterious Black Van to come and collect me. Yet I am woken by EMT’s as a phone jostled by a worker sets off a ‘disconnect’ on my lifeline and being a high risk, EMT’s are sent.

In the horde of zombie fiction Rot & Ruinlurches ahead of the pack. Timely and apt this week in reading, it envisions a world of grief, where death hangs over the remaining people and culture like the Great War did. Benny ends up in ‘The Family Business’, which he enters at 15, in a world of small enclaves and the great vast land of Rot and Ruin, 300 million zom’s. His brother is a ‘closure specialist’ who, unlike the majority of bounty hunters out there is not racking up the kills for profit but finds individual for family members who want closure. Much as we try to remove the idea of death and us, people fear ‘zoms’ not just because a bite means becoming one but because it opens up a whole Pandora’s box of pain and loss in remembering the First Night, and that brothers, sisters, parents, children all remain out there, undead and unliving both.

I will try to find a posting schedule that works, twice a week, I hope, as I have a dozen posts written but for illustrations or rewrites. And I plan, if I can get some bleeding and body parts back under control, or working again, to get a bearable life, and a shareable life working too.

To finish here is an apt minute and 50 seconds, Into the Dark, illustrated by parts of the film 5 cm per second (the time it takes a cherry blossom to fall), recommend high resolution if possible.
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Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up

Well unfortunately I don't own an iPod already for more than 3 years now. But then I could still pull out some shuffled song list from my phone. Though the playlist is not exactly updated, I shall list them down here.

Shuffle Playlist.
1. 2AM - You Wouldn't Answer My Calls
2. Anuar Zain - Sedetik Lebih (ost. Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa)
3. 2NE1 - Lonely
4. Chris Brown-Yeah 3x
5. Spider - Relaku Pujuk
6. Ne-yo - One In A Million
7. Lmfao - Party Rock Anthem
8. Rihanna Ft. David Guetta - Who's That Chick
9. Shontelle - Perfect Nightmare
10.Avril Lavigne - When You are Gone

Well i think that's what I could get from an un-updated playlist. Basically haven't really got much of proper internet connection over here so it is really difficult to download songs especially when my internet connection is super duper muper buper slow when I have 1.

Bad luck? Perhaps. Plus not having much time is also 1 of the main course is also that I have time management problems. I never tend to remember my time tables and hence that makes me super busy at times.

I supose that is among 1 of the main reason for my lack of updates too. Been trying to work myself on this bad habit. Really sorry fellow readers.

Samstag, 30. Juli 2011

Freebie time: watermelons!

I saw this cute vat with watermelons, tomatoes and beer on Tesh's blog, so I rushed to see the other freebies she mentioned. And oooh, I found lots and lots of watermelons :)

If you like these, join 'add9' group (you can do that through creator's profile: Canue Glazner) and check the notices. There are more watermelons as well as other gifts!

Norway Attacks Updates!

Norway

honored the memory of the 76 people killed in the worst massacre in the operative part, with the pressure of the nation’s Prime Minister on Friday, to join its core values of democracy and peace. A Muslim girl of 18 years was the first victim to rest as an anti-immigration turned the fire into a field of political youth and the seat of Government in Oslo bombed laid open. Bano Rashid, a Kurdish immigrant from Iraq, was buried in a Memorial in the Church of Nesodden, outside the capital in a Muslim ritual. Hiccup accompanied his coffin, which was wrapped in the flag of a young Kurdish. Read more

Jennifer Aniston To Prince William!

Jennifer Aniston

Jennifer Aniston know anything about hairstyles of celebrities. The woman, who popularized the Rachel asked for the revival of the bosses in London, a terrible voice to weigh that Prince William is supported by some to retrieve a cosmetic surgery on the top of its dome. Read more

Dana Wilkey Cast 'Real Housewives Of Beverly Hills'

Dana Wilkey

On 5 September, the real housewives of Beverly Hills will meet the audience Dana Wilkey. The event planner 37 year old and close friend of Taylor Armstrong isn’t technically as a new Member of the cast, but we’ll see many of their antics in autumn everything on Bravo. Get a preview now in this teaser two season. Read more

Rebecca Black: Wants To Be Taken Seriously!

Rebecca Black

Rebecca Black is aware that you have over a respected artist is a. But, that has so much reviled by his debut 13 year old follow up single, “Friday” with “my time,” a more mature, who hate the problem of bullying and online deals. Read more

Selena Gomez Singing In Boca Raton "Photos"!

Selena Gomez
Selena Gomez and the scene were on the scene in Boca Raton, Florida, yesterday, as the singer their tour “we own the night” started. Read more

Crystal Harris, Sorry To Hugh Hefner!

Crystal Harris

During an appearance on the Howard Stern radio show said this week they attracted no Crystal Harris, Hugh Hefner, never saw him n-aked and had s3x only once and permanently for as “two seconds”. Read more

ThunderCats Premieres Tonight On Cartoon Network!

ThunderCats

The new ThunderCats animated series from Warner Bros., a new version of the classic cartoon image of 80 of the same name, today tonight airs on cartoon network, July 29, around 20.00 clock (ET, PT) with a special one hour before, Read more

Journey Brings The 80s Back To New York!

Journey

This morning for your really was a truly epic, rad, with travel to Rockefeller Center, on the show today and Tiffany and Debbie Gibson run in Central Park of good morning America. “Journey” It was as if my childhood to a wine cooler cast into a stopped cups of pink/blue, yellow neon, then appeared in a tape for an impromptu jam session. Now, if we can get only JEM and she-RA in the same room. Read more

Effing Snooki Blames Car Crash!

Snooki

Could have caused the train accident Jersey Shore sent a car accident, the two policemen at a hospital in Florence, but Snooki says that her should not obvious fans, guilt, because she is always on the ball only car. Read more

‘Red Tails’ Release Trailer!

Red Tails

It seems that the stories of history and famous African-American contributions to the back of America now in fashion in film. Read more

The eLearning Africa Conference 2011

eLearning

eLearning Africa is the continent of Africa’s premier annual Conference on ICT-enhanced learning. This year was that the meeting in Tanzania between 25-27 May 2011. Read more

Freitag, 29. Juli 2011

Review Update 'Cowboys And Aliens'

Cowboys And Aliens
Now tell me, that DreamWorks, imagine, universal mashup Cowboys And Aliens is steam this evening to pick up at the box office and was opened with M $ 17 large for Friday and a weekend of M $ 45. Read more

Ryan Gosling Crazy, Star's Moments!

Ryan Gosling

We got pretty happy here at MTV News, our hands on Ryan Gosling metaphorically speaking of course have repeatedly in his impressive career. Read more

Break Up? Justin Bieber And Selena Gomez

Justin Bieber And Selena Gomez

We thought of Justin Bieber and Selena Gomez, were the real deal, and that she would stay together for a while. Read more

Antonio Cromartie Play By Seahawks With Joseph Gone!

Antonio Cromartie

With Jonathan Joseph, and the Houston Texans United for the rest of the Dominoes fall cornerback shortly, above all, a team may decide the fate of may for two of the three best general options. New York Jets NFL hold the cards with their search after Nnamdi Asomuagha and decides whether or not he her land market landscape. Keep not Revis, Asomuagha and Antonio Cromartie. When Nnamdi is signed banda verde, Cromartie is gone. If they take more then Nnamdi probably Cromartie seem to hold. Read more

AT The Aging Of Four Scenarios For Progeria!

Progeria

In the light of recent research shows, the longevity drug that causes accelerated aging condition Progeria mTOR, capable of handling, a researcher here is complete enough that a comment on this might mean for the work on “normal”. Is educational, but with the proviso that the author has a strong belief, which elaborate the gen-TOR in aging is central to read, here discussed four possible scenarios compare Progeria with normal aging and accelerated. Read more